January 2010
1 post
HELLO TUMBLR! AVY'S HERE! WOW IT'S BEEN AWHILE!
August 2009
2 posts
ORDER a rapper for lunch and spit out the chain.
When people try to help you..
take advantage of all the help you can otherwise it’s too late and all you have left is to learn from it.
Think your in heaven..
but you’re living in hell.
July 2009
17 posts
Why is it so hard for me to face it..
I can’t face what just happened to me. I won’t let it but I knew it happened to me.
Po and Zro..
can fuck up one kid, I can remember many things and most I don’t want to remember but have this fucking urge to.
My goals:
I want me back.
Get my license by the end of February.
Learn to love myself.
Learn to be proud of who I became.
Learn to learn, fuck studying unless necessary.
Confidence was key and I just lost it and needs to find it again.
It's hip..
what’s hip? ‘cause hip was just a norm. Where I’m from..
My journey to the past..
was a fucking trip. When they say life is a bitch, I really need to fuck it and move it on. Your instincts are way more smarter than theirs, no matter who the fuck it is. I had to learn that the hard way.
And you killed it when you said..
I love you.
Music was what I thought I had..
now I think I only have family.
When people try to change your mind about your...
they don’t love you, they’re just trying to change the person you were. Self-respect is hard to gain for myself after the past two weeks. I cannot say I tried to love them. You cannot love someone you don’t even know. The past is the fucking past and for them it was hard to understand but for me it was something to learn from. They treated me like a baby and somehow I was...
When they say the people around you makes you who...
it’s true.
I let the people I thought I loved take control of me because of all the pressure of who they wanted me to be. I wanted so many people to be happy that I couldn’t think for myself and pretty much lost myself in a their minds instead of mines. I can officially say am bit like everyone that I know in my life but I cannot say they didn’t fuck with my head to begin...
shiny boots of leather..
fuck I honestly need people around me just to get by.. I don’t know what the hell is up anymore.
fuckk..
I cannot fucking think straight.. if i said something fucking weird my fucking bad. talking right now for me is hard but i try and well get made fun of. i hate that am bitching but i’ve never felt like this. why the fuck is sleeping so fucking hard?
I'm waiting for my man..
26 dollars in my hand.
reading my past entries is very rebelling and annoying? and that wasn’t so long ago. Being in somewhere that isn’t where I’m use to be is just wow I need a rain check. I’m lost.. or am I just overthinking it? I don’t know anymore my entries are changing very slyly and my mind has a whole different perspective after just a few weeks with...
Tuesday morning..
praise the dawn and..
That was just the worst day of my life so far..
Insomnia..
I can’t think fucking straight..
STOP!
the love you saved maybe your own..
I had the biggest crush on him when I was a kiddo…
with my mom..
=)
Danngg..
I guess when you lose in touch with people, they tend to forget even though there were really unforgettable moments..
I hate it.
June 2009
11 posts
I like it here..
but I miss California, I miss all my friends. A month and a few weeks yumm..
Drag me to..
heaven.. god damn this movie was fucking brilliant. The title really gave me a thought of a stupid movie but scared the shit out of me. Kept me on my feet every freaking moment and did not disappoint me one bit.
Please don't be deceived..
by ugly slice of evil.
I asked a simple question and was replied with a vague answer. If people can’t answer a question, do they try to make the answer revolve around you in a bad way so you can shut up?
Are people stupid or ..
are they just trying to find another way to say no?
My patience is pretty strong but when it comes to an attitude is so rude than that’s when my zen goes bye bye.
It ain't no use to sit and wonder why..
it don’t matter anyhow.
One of my friends, now a senior, told me he had a crush on me freshmen year. It was cute that he told me on his last day of school but I never knew when I was a freshmen, like usually you’d get hints but he was just a buddy yannoe? Oh man and he told me when I was a freshmen I was pretty much up the scale and I lowered as each year came along. That pretty...
“Never make an assumption based on your perception.”
– Scrubs
Taylor Lautner and Selena Gomez!??
According to perezhilton.com they’re dating! He’s such a freaking hottie and she’s such a cutie!! How fucking cool! I think they’re cute together.
May 2009
9 posts
“Why did I act like you mattered, it was silly of me to believe that if I just...”
– TLC, I Miss You So Much
This guy said he'll protect me if I were to join a...
Ermine furs adorn the imperious,
Severin awaits you there
I have this sudden urge to bake! But dammit I have no supplies whatsoever. Junior year is about to end and before I even know it am about to graduate. Damn, freshmen year I have to admit was the best to me. Catcher in the Rye and Great Gatsby were the best books by far. Meeting Dexter over the summer was absolutley no mistake. Am gonna miss being a teenager..
Everyday..
it’s getting closer, going faster like a rollercoaster.
So today I pretty much failed in life, but I can’t say I didn’t try. Oh well, senior year will be a breeze and I came to the conclusion, I do not want to get married. I see no point in having to sign piece of paper to have to be with someone you love and you have to pay for it! I find that total non sense. I...
It's a luscious mix..
of words and tricks.
Is it wrong to take people less seriously than you should? People shouldn’t take me to seriously, I mean I never take anyone seriously..
If you close the door..
I’d never have to see the day again.
Lately, I’ve been lazy. I don’t know how to study for math. Is it like practicing each problem or reviewing what you learned? What if you don’t know anything? Or well I did at the moment but it never carries on for when I really need it. I still don’t know why I signed up for Calculus AP.
I needs..
to find me an adventure..
April 2009
10 posts
Would I ever change myself for you?
Only if you are worth it.. and not many people are.
“If you can’t laugh at yourself, life’s gonna seem a whole lot longer...”
– Garden State (2004)
I miss it..
I miss everything that just happened.
Because Velvet Underground is the biz.
I have a crush on Jay Gatsby..
really.
I'm just a soul..
whose intentions are good.
Someone told me, the way I present myself, from what I wear and how I look indicates that I don’t know who I am. Can someone possibly tell me I don’t know myself when that person can’t even solve their own situations? I find this totally ironic.
“Sooner or later it all comes crashing down. It’s over, leave it.”
– N.E.R.D.
I'll ask the sun..
to shine away from you for days that you can cry.
Excitement, I haven’t had one of those in a while. Spontaneous, not lately. Peculiar, is something I want to occur. I think I need to stop waiting for it and strive for something like it. Than again I am a big believer in fate, if it’s meant to happen than it should right? Gosh, I don’t know anymore.